tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3367902.post-918874832003-04-02T19:31:00.000-08:002003-04-02T19:31:22.920-08:00it's funny- i know i'm not a strong person, but i've never really felt this weak; my body is hollow, my mind is... i don't know. i don't really know anything anymore. i feel as though any breath could shatter me, as though any thought could kill me, for i love you the most, and i have hurt you more than i have ever hurt anyone. nothing makes sense right now, in fact i'm not entirely sure if this is real. it doesn't feel real. i mean, how could it be? i love you, you love me, we were so happy... why couldn't i just fall? if ever i could erase time, i would erase my life. all the things through which i have suffered... next to this they are nothing; no pain, no sorrow, no anguish has ever been so great as this, and yet it was inevitable. still, inevitable as it may have been i feel it was unforgivable. you have never been anything short of wonderful, perfect, incredible... you don't need this. you don't deserve this. no one ever does. and it was the worst... it shattered not only our intimacy, but has weakened our friendship as well. no matter how many times i say, "i love you," you will always remember, and i will always remember... ...that day... why is it that we remember the things we wish to forget the most? it is a terrible curse. and so am i, a curse upon you and your happiness because i am powerful in your life, but weak in my own, and foolish with both. i hope that the scars will not be too deep. i hope that what is tarnished will again be able to shine. i hope that you will always know that you are the most important person in my life. i love you. i will always love, but i know i don't deserve you.Diamondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11678736686716927909noreply@blogger.com