20020530
strange thing. i really would have slit my wrists last year. then they took my knives and razors away. good for them. when you're down you don't think about the future, and when you're up you do. if it's only gonna be one way, think about how good everything can turn out to be when you're feeling down.
i just took a method of suicide test. i think it's pretty accurate now. i just want you to see the contrast of what i got this year (top) and what i got this same time last year (bottom) i'm a much happier person. life is good. even if i am kinda goofy.

Test, test?

Test, test?

Test, test?

Test, test?
20020529
i thought that you needed to be reminded of the best song in the world. again. here it is:
_
My friend assures me 'it's all or nothing'
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
My friend implores me: 'For one time only make an exception'
I am not not worried
Wrap her up in a package of lies send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
With the status of my emotions 'Oh', She says, 'You're changing.'
But we're always changing
It does not bother me to say this isn't love
Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
And I guess I'm going to have to live with that
But, I'm sure there's something in a shade of grey or something in between
And I can always change my name if that's what you mean
My friend assures me 'It's all or nothing'
But I am not really worried, I am not overly concerned
You try to tell yourself the things you tell yourself to make yourself forget
I am not worried
'If it's love', she said, 'then were gonna have to think about the consequences'
She can't stop shaking and I can't stop touching her and.....
This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes her away and Anna begins to change her mind
'These seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days' she says
And I'm not ready for this sort of thing
But I'm not gonna break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not gonna bend and I'm not gonna break
I'm not gonna worry about it anymore
It seems like I should say 'as long as this is love...'
But it's not all that easy so maybe I should just:
Snap her up in a butter fly net and just pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried, I've done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...
This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes me away and Anna begins to change my mind
And every time she sneezes I believe it's it's love and
Oh lord.... I'm not ready for this sort of thing
She's talking in her sleep
It's keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turn
And every word is nonsense but I understand and
Oh lord... I'm not ready for this sort of thing
Her kindness bangs a gong
It's moving me along and Anna begins to fade away
It's chasing me away
She disappears and
Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing
_
My friend assures me 'it's all or nothing'
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
My friend implores me: 'For one time only make an exception'
I am not not worried
Wrap her up in a package of lies send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
With the status of my emotions 'Oh', She says, 'You're changing.'
But we're always changing
It does not bother me to say this isn't love
Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
And I guess I'm going to have to live with that
But, I'm sure there's something in a shade of grey or something in between
And I can always change my name if that's what you mean
My friend assures me 'It's all or nothing'
But I am not really worried, I am not overly concerned
You try to tell yourself the things you tell yourself to make yourself forget
I am not worried
'If it's love', she said, 'then were gonna have to think about the consequences'
She can't stop shaking and I can't stop touching her and.....
This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes her away and Anna begins to change her mind
'These seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days' she says
And I'm not ready for this sort of thing
But I'm not gonna break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not gonna bend and I'm not gonna break
I'm not gonna worry about it anymore
It seems like I should say 'as long as this is love...'
But it's not all that easy so maybe I should just:
Snap her up in a butter fly net and just pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried, I've done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...
This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes me away and Anna begins to change my mind
And every time she sneezes I believe it's it's love and
Oh lord.... I'm not ready for this sort of thing
She's talking in her sleep
It's keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turn
And every word is nonsense but I understand and
Oh lord... I'm not ready for this sort of thing
Her kindness bangs a gong
It's moving me along and Anna begins to fade away
It's chasing me away
She disappears and
Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing
i have another eating disorder announcement. don't let me eat ice cream tomorrow!!!! i had too much today and had to rid myself of it. miserable really. then my eyes look all teary and people wonder what's wrong. well, i'm not upset i just have an eating disorder, so no, nothings "wrong" but something's wrong with me. grrrr. it's wierd. like, sometimes purging makes me feel better. sometimes i eat just so i can. i won't eat too much,. but just a little so there's something there. yeah, it's sick i know. i hate that i do that. and when i over eat i just can't take it. that horrible full feeling. and it's not as though i think i'm fat or anything, because i don't. i think i have a nice body. i am comfortable with myself. but i still have an eating disorder. what is up with that? oh god, help me people. i'm gonna start bringing an apple every day to lunch so i will have something that isn't too much and is good for me too. don't let me eat junk food. no more. and no flavored coffee. espressos are okay. no frappes, no mochas. nothing fancy. and no junk food. none. zip. nada. nothing. i can't do this by myself. i need help.
i'm supposed to be doing a bibliography for a report i did on abortion. this class is so boring. i'll just do it at home. most of my information is there anyway. there are so many "nice" people in this class. you know those people who aren't really nice but they pretend to be. i mean, if you're an asshole, just be straight forward about it.
pay attention to the cracked streets and the broken homes, some call it slums some call it nice. i want to take you through a waste land i like to call my home. welcome to paradise.
20020526
my mother asked me if i was happy the other day, and it was really strange. she kept interrogating me about it. turns out she read one of my old journals. i am happier than i used to be. those were really depressing. but she had no right to do that. my father even said that they shouldn't have but they did anyway. well, at least he knew what he was doing was wrong. i am still really frustrated with them.. i need to put in green day. it will cheer me up. i can't believe they did that. i can't trust them now. and i was just beginning to feel comfortable with asking them for advice and stuff like that. they ruined it. oh well, it's worse for them than for me.
OH MY GOD. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REALIZED? IT WAS EXACTLY FIVE WEEKS BETWEEN THE TIME THAT SAM AND I BROKE UP AND THAT IVAN AND I GOT TOGETHER. AND IVAN AND I HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR FIVE WEEKS, ON THE 30TH IT WILL BE FIVE WEEKS AND FIVE DAYS. IF SOMETHING BAD IS TO HAPPEN BETWEEN US, IT WILL HAPPEN THEN. FUCK!!!!
here are the lyrics to all of their songs in chronological (cd) order and some pics too:
MO' MONEY, MO' 40S
Compulsive Prep
so pissed off i can’t get it off my mind
because it’s happened again for the second time
i know she’z lying but I believe her anyway
because I wanted things to turn out my way
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
speechless for words but so many thoughts in my head trying to figure out who I still got while lying alone in my bed and I’m too emotional for my own good but is that bad and would you care more if I cared less
but I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore
because I’m gettin’ rid of this mess
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
if I could turn back time I would not talk to you cause you didn’t want to hear from me and look how quickly were through and I don’t know if you do this to everyone but if you do I think you’re goin’ down because with a mind set like that you will eventually get dicked around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
Same Old Same Old
you would never turn around your turning everything upside down and tryin’ to put the blame on me but now that I’m a superstar you always want to hang around and act like you did nothing wrong to me
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
the way you act now seems like we’ve been friends forever but lookin’ into those lying eyes I know better
you say it’s been a long time since we have seen each other you’re feeling
kind of beat and you wanna’ talk to a friend but here’s the truth here’s truth about the matter we were never friends
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
the way you act now seems like we’ve been friends forever but lookin’ into those lying eyes I know better
you say it’s been a long time since we have seen each other you’re feeling
kind of beat and you wanna’ talk to a friend but here’s the truth here’s truth about the matter we were never friends
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
cant you see
Random Arrival
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
theres nothing wrong with peace and unity
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themselves and thats what we need
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
now that your back im so happy to see you
well play some shows drink some beer or smoke a bong or two
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doest matter if your black or white
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doesnt matter if your black or white
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themelves and thats what we need
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
Dody Road
its about 11:30 and its getting kinda late
well i dont think tonight ill participate
then ricky shows up he looks like a toad
he says lets go i say where and its dody road
no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
only the raddest dudes like to hang there
with their one tattoo and their slicked back hair
they say their car is the raddest WOO-HOO
would you like to race me too
but no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
its dody
its dody
thats the place
that ill never go
its dody
its dody
that the place
thats ill never go
but no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
I'll never go to dody road
Movin' On
here’s a little story that im gonna tell you
and it’s not that important or at least not to you
youll be a friend and i hope youll give a listen cause im tryin to figure out what I’ve been missin
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
it’s really kind of funny how she walked ‘cause she didn’t even care she was just takin’ the right route one second she loved me the next she walked away it really made me mad I wanted her to stay
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dohnt care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
if you ever hear this song I want you to know
I thought of things to say and this is how it go’z I think your a bitch and I want you to see
remember all the sex that you promised me well I don’t want none and I don’t care and if you try to come back to me I swear I’ll leave you like you left me your such a fuckin’ bitch I want you to see
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
Rebel with a Reason
no i aint got a high school diploma
no i aint got a masters degree
but what you got to realize
is that you dont mean shit to me
because what i wanna do in life
dont take no education
what it takes is pure love and dedication
being told im gonna go nowhere
being told im gonna do nothing
thats shit dont phase me bitch
i aint bluffin
did ya really think all that shit ya said that it would phase me
guess again you puto I’m already loco
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
it was so long ago but not too far away
calumet park is where I used to stay
and when I was a kid everything went right
and now I’m growin’ up and it seems to be going wrong
so say what you want to say
and do what you wanna do
take some words of advice from me to you
be yourself through and through
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
say what you want now
say what you want now
it has no effect on me
say what you want now
say what you want now
Im Stuck
here’s a little story about my life
I was a normal kid livin’ it right
and I don’t really know just what it was
but now I know I’m fuct up just because
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
I lost myself a day ago
where I was I don’t know
tomorrow I may find again the place I’ve always been
in the darkness all alone that’s the place that I always go
you’ll always find me hiding there
smokin’ a J and drinkin’ a beer
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
(lets go)
where I’m headed I don’t really care
just as long as there all there
cause I know one day my life will be tooken away
and that day may be today
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
and that day may be today
Muckaferguson
let’s go it’s so funny sometimes what you see
it really blows my fuckin’ mind
please tell me what are you trying to be
it really blows my f*ckin’ mind
who are you trying to be who are you following now
who are you trying to be who are you following now
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
image of you it makes me sick
I laugh out loud you probably think I’m a dick
but I don’t really care what the f*ck you say
I’ll always be myself and I’ll always be that way
who are you trying to be who are you following now
who are you trying to be who are you following now
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
who’s that on the corner is it really you
let me ask you one thing what are you trying to prove
please tell me what you’re do
please tell me what you’re trying to prove
please tell me what you’re do
please tell me what you’re trying to prove
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
Indian Pete
took a trip with your friends up to michigan
couldn’t wait to get back ‘cause you wanted to see her again
but now you’re back and everything’s changed
why is it so different
why is it so strange
while you were gone all her thoughts somehow got rearranged
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
ya never thought that she would leave you in this way
and now you’re all alone again why were you left astray
when your lost where do you run are you looking for someone
to come forward and be a friend who will be the one
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
I couldn’t believe it when I heard the news
to come to me you would refuse
you wouldn’t want to talk to a friend
cause things changed in the end
between us and a new crowd you had to choose
but such a friend I wasn’t willing to lose
I said I’d be there until the end
cause I would do anything for a true friend...
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
all alone
Slow Motion
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion
its slow motion
im so bored with life. is it because i wanted you to be my wife
and now shes gone again and i wonder if shell ever be my girlfriend again
i think what can i do now sittin by my kitchen table wonderin how
one second life can be filled with so much motion
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
i wake up get out of bed and feel like the walking dead
i take off my pants and wash my face
im safe again in the place i love to be
the unconcious world, its the best world of all
with no real worries or fears at all
so once again, something hits me in the eye
its the morning sun and its bringing me back to the place i dont wanna be
i dont wanna be
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
3's My Lucky Number
the one that I want is gone
and the two I never had are back but I’ll give up everything with those two
just to have the one that I had back
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
3’z my lucky number but I think I’m goin’ down
I think I’m gonna’ crumble with all these people around
they were the one’s that tore me up and threw me out
but I’m a stronger person now I wont go that route
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
3’z my lucky number but I think I’m goin’ down
I think I’m gonna’ crumble with all these people around
they were the one’s that tore me up and threw me out
but I’m a stronger person now I wont go that route
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
To All My Homies
good and bad things come in life and I wish the good things would stay
but usually it don’t go my way and the good things fly away
I have a knack for doing wrong but I try and I try maybe my future don’t look so bright but I’m not asking why
you gotta live your life from day to day
that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
I try to make new friends from day to day
and if they respect me man fuck they’re ok
it’s the yuppity white people that fear me that I can’t stand to see
cause if you’re a good person at heart your color means nothing to me
I talk to so many black people from day to day
and it seems like every time I see a white person they just turn away
you gotta live your life from day to day
that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
you gotta live your life from day to day
ya ya that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
That Song
I’ll say it once I’ll say it twice
you look real fine you look real nice
but from here what do I do
maybe you have a boyfriend and maybe you don’t
but it don’t matter ‘cause we won’t
talk tonight
I said stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
break it down
that cute little blonde streak in your hair
that nerdy guy’s got his arm around you that ain’t fair
but am I really the one that is the nerd
because of him to you my voice will never be heard
I said stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
I don’t wanna be just another guy
and I don’t wanna be just another guy
that comes up to you and tells you you’re fine
and you walk away cause you ain’t got the time
to listen to what I think oh how I wish that you were mine
so stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
stay here with me
stay here with me
Y
I got this story don’t know what it’s about but I’m gonna’ tell you anyway
what I do with my life I don’t really care but I know I was sure left astray
I know what I want and I know it runs deep through your body too
you’ll never understand just what the fuck i've gone through why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
it’s this pain that I feel
is this life really for real
or is this just another nightmare
because I know you just don’t care
you say it wasn’t your fault
ther’z a lesson that’s gotta’ be taught
if it was love that you make believed then you’re gonna have to live with me
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
the bright light goin’ dim
and I can’t believe the state of mind I’m in
I didn’t ask to take this ride this is the end and I will see you on the other side
R Ska Song
well i went to your house and i knocked at the doorparents tell me to get down on the floori got nothing better to doso i say hey fuck you
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
i went to the record storei had no moneyi lost it all on a beti don't think that it's too funnynow i can't buy minor threat
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
i stay stay stay far awaymaybe i'll be back another dayparents tell me to get a joband i really don't care what they say
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
went to the record storei had the moneyi lost it all on a bet
well i don't think that it's too funnynow i can't buy minor threat
and i really hate your motheri really hate your motheri really hey hey hey hey heyon meon meon meon me hey hey
let's go
Beer
we’re drinking our lives away
I think it was better yesterday that was when I had a hold on life my goals and my dreams
a straighter mind a straighter way to think you know what I mean
but now it’s gone
now it’s gone
now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
it makes my life a little easier
it takes away my daily pains
so what if it makes me think of the bad
that’s not the only thing I’ve had
only on my mind hears my confessions
but i was wrong
i was wrong
and now its gone
and i want it back
its the motivation i lack
and the will power that i need
to set me free
but now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
to set me free
but now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
i wanna be free
to set me free
i wanna be free
On My Mind
my mind thinks in a weird waychanging a thought from day to dayone day i thought i'd like toand the next day i just didn't knowthe problem is i'm gonna see youevery day and at every show
but then i see this other girlmy mind went into another worldi think i'm too strange for herthat's why i'm macking you
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
i don't know how to let you knowhow i feel about youi guess i'll just write another songcuz that's all i know how to do
and when the tale of crushing's doneand then just write another onebut i don't think this time my armis going to run writebut then i see this other girlmy mind went into another worldi think i'm too strange for herthat's why i'm macking you
too many thoughts in my mindi think that i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
i hope you will understandi hope you can understandwhen you are notyou know how to relateand i hope you will understand
i hope you don't laugh at meand take this as a jokei hope you will understandcuz believe me this timethese feelings are for real
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
get up
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
youll always be on my mind
Is This The End?
is my family falling apart or has it already
and is my life falling apart because I’m not ready to live in this world all alone
I’m not a man just a boy going through life
the best the best that I can
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
she says she doesn’t want to be here
well why why don’t she go
is she telling the truth
or putting on another big show
and I don’t know if this would effect me
or bother me in any way
I guess that’s just how I’ve grown up
I live my life my own way
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
things are really fuct up but I know I’ll make it through
cause I’ve got some good friends to help me and they’ve done it toomy friends thought I had everything ‘’cause my parents gave me what I want
but what they can’t see is inside my heart is torn in knots
so lost and confused at the age of 17
will my life stay like this will I grow up to be old and mean
please God help me I know you’re on my side help me get the grass thats greener on the other side
I hide
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
at the age of 17 is this the end
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
at the age of 17 is this the end
DESTINATION UNKNOWN
Opinions
Frustrated with whats going on
I feel lost and i dont feel right
Tell me what I can do to make
Them happy, but then will I be happy
I can't do wrong, I can't do right
I feel so alone tonight
I wish someone could feel
And understand the way I think
They got me on the brink
Of self destruction
I wish someone could feel
People surround me
Fill my head with opinions
Of what they think is right
I can't do wrong, I can't do right
I feel so alone tonight
I wish someone could feel
And understand the way I think
They got me on the brink
Of self destruction
I wish someone could feel
I can't do wrong I can't do rightI wonder where you are tonightI wish that you were hereTo understand the way I thinkYou know they got me on the brinkOf self destructionI wish someone could feelI wish someone could feel
Yesterday
I said sit back relaxIt's not the endWe're gonna both put itPut it off again
Our separate paths will lead usDifferent waysBut the care remainsIt will always stay
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all we haveSorry I could not make this last
One thing I need from youThat's honestyPlease never lie to meThat's what she said to me
One thing for sure is thatI will be trueIn everything I doThat's what I learned from you
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all we haveSorry I could not make this last
Being on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then goneSeems like it takes so long
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastSorry I could not make this lastSorry I could not make this last
Another Day
Another day gone by
And still no reason why
You say goodbye but then you cry
A million miles apart we lie
I opened every door to you
I put all my trust in you
You took advantage of it why?
Was every word you said a lie?
It's just another day, that didn't go my wayIt's just another dayCause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
I sit in here with all this fearEmpty thoughts and a blank stareTrying to find, a reason whyThe ones you trust, are the ones that lie
And was I wrong, for trusting youYou said you just don't know what to doWhen you're with him, you think of meCause change means losing security
It's just another day, that didn't go my wayIt's just another dayCause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
You say there's too much past with himYou can't throw it all awayBut the past is all you have with himHistory means securityThat's what I say, it's just another day
Cause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you do
Cause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
It's just another day
Without You
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Thoughts of happinessOnly when you reminisceCause now that things are badYou think of what you could've had
Think of the years they spentWith no money for the rentFrom the bottom to the topThey stuck to their guns they'll never stop
Cause I warned you I told you I'd be better without youI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Now everyone has changedBut somehow you stayed the sameA life lesson has been learnedYour best came back and you got burned
What you done you try to hideIt's time to swallow your prideYou'll never change and I can seeWhen you said at least you're makin money from me
When I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
And I wonder where you are sometimesAnd I wonder areRight now
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youHow do you feel now
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Fucked Up Kid
the words you say ill never listen to
cause if i did id be just like you
but your my enemy and soon your gonna see
you gotta be yourself to be happy
cause your not
your not...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
cause your so quick to point the finger
you act like your shit dont linger
it feels good when you see someone else in a rut
it gives you confidence it makes you happy but
your not
your not...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
you act as if youve seen my way
but i know that you wont leave today
cause change is what you fear the most
and the end is getting close
and the end it getting close
and the end is getting close...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
its all the things ive got
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
and its all the things ive got
and its all the things...ive got
Its Over
You've been waiting forYou never knew for sureCause time was goin' byAnd never asked you why
When I would talk to you
The words would go right through
Your head
But I couldnt tell
You were under her spell
She had full control
No one would ever know
How much she didnt care
Just like Sunny not Cher
The beat didnt go on
She looked at you and she said to your face
Its Over, Its Over
Shes got a new man and its time for you to
Move Over, Move Over
Your drunk and now you wish that you
Were Sober, Were Sober
Cause now you cant get it out of your head and
Its Over, Is Over
She said she doesnt know
Its like the Springer show
Shes says that she loves you
But that she loves him too
So you keep holding on
Your love for her is strong
Until she says so long
And you did nothin wrong
But this keps happenin
Time and time again
Your thinkn to yourself
She was your only friend
But your so fuckin wrong
Thats just so fuckin lame
You realize their all the same
She looked at you and she said to your faceIt's over, it's overShe's got a new man and it's time for youTo move over, move overYou're drunk and mad you wish that youWere sober, were soberCause now you can't get it out of your headThat it's over, that it's over, that it's overCause it's over, it's over, it's overAnd it's over, it's over, it's over
Tell them lies and they will believe youWhen you're honest they will deceive youIf you love them they will just leave youBut if you play them they will stay with you
Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will be with you
And I'll be here when she says
She looked at you and she said to your faceIt's over, it's overShe's got a new man and it's time for youTo move over, move overYou're drunk and mad you wish that youWere sober, were soberCause now you can't get it out of your headThat it's over, that it's over, that it's overCause it's over She said I'm sorry it's over(Well it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)
Reason
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the season
And the seasons changed
So I listen to what you say
But I dont believe a word you say
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the season
And the seasons changed
So I listen to what you say
But I dont believe a word you say
I just wanted to get over you
But i cant stop thinkin about you
Not a second goes by that youre not in my head
You dick me over again and again
But I still remain your friend
Its time for this to end
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the seasons
And the seasons changed
Will he still love me tomorrow?
For way too long you fucked with my mind
Ive sang this song way too many times
And you need to know its gone on for way too long
Thought it would be just the two of us in the end
But now im leavin and your not even my friend
Was that the way uou felt for real?
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the seasons
And the seasons changed
Will he still love me tomorrow?
Tonight i feel the lovin in your eyes
Breakin' Down
WWhen we first met It seemed so right me and youWe had it all we had it made What we had was trueBut the years have passed And we didn't last the test of timeSee you now and then Thought you were my friendI was wrong this time
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin'
You've lost your sense of stability Now that you're freeNo memory of yesterday Is what you say to meSay you're so jaded But intoxicated is all you feelAnd now I've learned that What we had was never real
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin'
Things you've done show you don't care So I won't be there
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin'
...she's broken down
Chelsea
i thought you were the one
But I was wrong cuz
You're already left and I hope
That you miss me tonight Chelsea
And I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
A year ago we met And I never would've guessedThat you'd mean so much to meBut the brown eyes drove me crazy And at the time everything was going wrongBut you made everything seem alrightSo now I wonder where you are On this cold November night
I thought you were the oneBut I was wrong cuzYou're already left and I hope That you miss me tonight ChelseaAnd I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
I had to leave that night cuz I knew somethin' wasn't rightWe held each other As the night came to an endBut all I could think about was your boyfriendIf he only knew the things That you've done and saidAnd that you were lyin' here with me in this bedBecause I live so far away Is why you chose him that day
I thought you were the oneBut I was wrong cuzYou're already left and I hope That you miss me tonight ChelseaAnd I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
Tonight I don't know where you areBut I know where you should beSo here I am all alone when you should beWith me Chelsea
Misunderstood
i know you're not exactly crazy
About the way I have been lately
And I don't know when I should
Say all the things I want to say
Cuz I know that it would hurt you
And I don't want that
Cuz after all the things we've been through
you deserve much more than that
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
I can see just what is coming Another argument worth nothingAnd believe me when I tell you Another fight I won't go throughCuz I know that it would hurt you And I don't want thatCuz after all the pain you've been through You deserve much more than that
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
I wont hear anything that you say to me
I wont hear anything that you say to me
I wont hear anything that you say to me (say to me)
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
Drawing Board
i can recall only this one time this type of control the girl had on my mind
ive fallen deep. i cant get out. ive never acted this way before
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
feeling alone, and shes on my mind
try to erase all the pain from that time
shes breaking up and im breakin down
now im headed out of this fucked up town
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but the band wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
in your head
so love me so i can be myself again now maybe
so things are normal in my head im trying to break away this ball and chain
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
things seem normal in my head
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with words you youve heard before
in your head
i am dead
Mothers Prayer
i wonder if you're alone up thereSince you've been goneI've been alone down hereShe told me that I would be OKNow I don't believe what she had to sayWhen she said...
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
Now days have passed And weeks have tooAll I think about is how I miss youShe told me that I would be OKBut I feel the same that I felt that dayWhen she said...
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
He don't know what he has done Mother prays to the Lord above Lord please save my sons
He don't know what he has done Mother prays to the Lord above Lord please save my sons
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
She prays to the lord ill be fine
its only a matter of time
its only a matter of time
Living Dead
There came a time in my life
When everything seemed alright
But everything turned out wrong
And now ive got to carry on
Without you in my life
Sleep through the day into the night
Roll out of bed what can be said?
Im living now but i feel dead
Does he realize what hes got
Ill be there when he is not
I hope i stay stuck in his head
Im living now but i feel dead
You walked away yesterday
Now todays there's nothing to say
So tomorrow we'll never know
what should have and or could have been
Cause yesterday has been done
You walked away yesterday
Now todays there's nothing to say
So tomorrow we'll never know
What should have and or could have been
Cause yesterday has been done
Movin' On
Sitting underneath the moonlightMissing my baby tonight, this feeling's just not rightThe last time we touched it's been so longHer lovin' keeps me strong and I know that nothing's wrong
But I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' onNever understand the way she makes me feelWhen she holds my hand I hope that God had this plannedAnd she was his angel, lost her wings for this worldTo come down here and save me, she's my baby
But I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyI know that she's the one for meI know that she thinks the same about meAnd I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' on and on and onHer lovin' keeps me movin' on
I just keep holding onBut I'm not that strongWithout youI just keep holding onBut I'm not that strongWithout you
Cause I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyI know that she's the one for meI know that she thinks the same about meCause I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' on
Say So Long
Its 3 a.m. and you're walkin on the streets again
No place to call home
you feel youve got no friends
you wonder is this the end?
Cause time and time again
You hope for a better end
You keep losing all the time
You feel your gonna lose your mind
You say "This is the last time!"
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
Its 10 a.m. and the next day has just begun
Never thought it'd come to this
Now everyones at work
No where to go and now it hurts
You left your home because
You felt your life there was done
That you wanted something more
And now your all alone
Youve got no place to call home
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
Youre questioning the road that you chose
For reasons why yourself and no one knows
Now your here youve got no where to go
Youve got a choice but you choose to go
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
WASTING TIME
Long Days Long Nights
if i could be anything at all. i'd be an angel spread my wings and fly away
but im stuck here on the ground so ill see you around
youll hear me piss and moan and complain.
if i could be anything at all. i'd be an angel spread my wings and fly away
but im stuck here on the ground so ill see you around
youll hear me piss and moan and complain.
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the feelings gone the pain dwells on
long days long nights the feelings just not right
i picked up a pen and pad and i start to write
thinking about our last fight. it was a cold and rainy night
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the thrill is gone the pain dwells on
on and on
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the thrill is gone the pain dwells on
on and on
the pain dwells on and on
Hotel Room
im all alone in this hotel room. the fear inside of me is uncontrollable
i hear the cars see the sun the sky is blue
all i can think about is being with you. guess im all alone again so
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be there wishing i was there
never once did i seem to care. if i didnt have any part of you
but now i do and i dont know what to say
i feel lost in every possible way. guess im all alone again so
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
wishing i was there
wanna call you when i know i cant call you
wanna see you when i know i cant see you
wanna touch you when i know i cant touch you
wanna be inside of you
wanna call you when i know i cant call you
wanna see you when i know i cant see you
wanna touch you when i know i cant touch you
wanna be inside of you
wanna be inside of you
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was t here
wishing i was there
wishing i was there
wishing i was there
Whats the Dillio?
theres this little girl and i think shes so fine
im not giving up until she is mine
i wanna be her boy and i want her to be my girl
because since i met her ive been in another world
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
i said
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
see everybody else has gotten involved
thats not the way this should have evolved
i should have just told you how i felt
but when im around you my words just melt
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her she not
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
(im not homeless people just think that i am)
Slow Motion
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion
its slow motion
im so bored with life. is it because i wanted you to be my wife
and now shes gone again and i wonder if shell ever be my girlfriend again
i think what can i do now sittin by my kitchen table wonderin how
one second life can be filled with so much emotion
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
i wake up get out of bed and feel like the walking dead
i take off my pants and wash my face
im safe again in the place i love to be
the unconcious world, its the best world of all
with no real worries or fears at all
so once again, something hits me in the eye
its the morning sun and its bringing me back to the place i dont wanna be
i dont wanna be
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
Drawing Board
i can recall only this one time this type of control the girl had on my mind
ive fallen deep. i cant get out. ive never acted this way before
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
feeling alone, and shes on my mind
try to erase all the pain from that time
shes breaking up and im breakin down
now im headed out of this fucked up town
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but the band wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
in your head
so love me so i can be myself again now maybe
so things are normal in my head im trying to break away this ball and chain
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
things seem normal in my head
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with words you youve heard before
in your head
i am dead
Change
i said what is that your saying today
the exact opposite of yesterday
its funny how things can change
and your mind gets rearranged
tell me what i should do tell what should i say
is there even time for change?
or is it just one following anoher
when i look your way dont know what to say
cause you change you style almost every day
its funny the way things went down
cause your still stuck in this town
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
or is it just one following another
gonna break it down and i gotta let you know
to you life is just a fashion show
thats the way i feel inside
that makes me laugh at how hard that you tried
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
or is it just one following another
what will you do and what will you say
does it depend on what their doing that day
interest you know used to hang so low
youve lost yourself
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
is their even time for change
or is it just one following another
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
us there even time for change
or is it just one following another
i said what is that your saying today
the exact opposite of yesterday
its funny how things can change
and your mind gets rearranged
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
is there even time for change
Forget You
what went on last night wasnt just another stupid fight
will we be again or will we both forget this in the end
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
consider me your friend until you do that stupid shit again
i believed all you told when you left me hangin out so cold
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
Electric Baby
there are two loves that i have in this world
my electric guitar my electric girl
i love them both so much and i hope that they see
without one of them i wouldnt be me
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
well i would do anything for you at the drop of a dime
cause when i feel lost
i feel fine knowing that your mine
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
im alone without you
i feel lost i dont know what to do
in this life i wont stay
if you choose to run away
dont run away
i need you to stay
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
dont run away
i need you to stay
so dont run away
i need you to stay
Girl For Tonight
it was the last time i saw you
who would have known that youd be blue
im getting up and movin on
cause ive been drinking here for way to long
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
haven't felt real love in so long
my true love left me and she did me wrong
when im alone i feel the pain
so ill get drunk and find a girl to keep me from going insane
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
i hope tonight will never end
with this angel that heaven sent
i hope tonight will never end
with this angel that heaven sent
that heaven sent
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
youll be my girl for tonight
Lonely Days
When you phone and will you tell me
or will you try because I'm lonely
I wanna know whats happening
and can you tell me so I wont be I wont be lonely anymore
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i do
tell me now what should i do
a little drunk im pissing on the street
as im walking im trippin on my own feet
i start to laugh and then i wonder why
i choose to stare im staring at starting at the sky again
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i try
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i do
tell me now what should i do
Richard Marxism
well i know i let you down
and i guess i wont be seeing you around
i dont have much to say
i didnt mean to fuck up in this way
and now im all alone
because im back on my own
just give me one more chance
this time i swear it will be my last
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
but i got scared pretended not to care
i dont know what to say
i think i know why you look this way
it was something that i say
because its still running through my head
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
but i got scared pretended not to care
and i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
i got scared pretended not to care
Random Arrival
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
theres nothing wrong with peace and unity
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themselves and thats what we need
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
now that your back im so happy to see you
well play some shows drink some beer or smoke a bong or two
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doest matter if your black or white
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doesnt matter if your black or white
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themelves and thats what we need
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
The Last Time
cause its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
its the last time
if at all you taught me anything
you taught me pain and hurt
now can you tell me
do you ever feel guilt
anything that you built inside of yours
cause its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
and its the last time
when i think all the thoughts come to my head
of the last words that you said
there stuck inside of me
and i said this wont happen to me again
3 months later your my friend and its happening again
(go)
i will not cry alone as i lye
i said what about our past
you said stick it up your ass
she shut the door with these words
said you were thinking of me last time you were in bed
its the last time
its the last time
its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
and its the last time
Wasting my Time
ive waited im lonely
youve faded im jaded
trying to hold onto the things that were once mine
theres too much time wasting my time
my mind goes blank again
think of nothing but you
ive waited im lonely
you faded im jaded
theres too much time wasting my time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
and are you thinking of me or do you want to be free
just tell me and i will let you go
theres too much time wasting my time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
theres too much time and all i know
im in a fucked state of mind i cant let go
theres too much time and all i know
im in a fucked state of time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
when will i see you again
when will i see you again
Greyhound
the morning after our first trip to greenbay
we headed off to the station of greyhound
not thinkin much of what was ahead. ahead of us
the stinky people and the smell. the smell on this bus
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
a 32 oz. of high life and six sleeping pills
were not enough to make me crash. so im still awake
jeremiahs gonna get some ass from the girl next to him
all of this to play one show with goldfinger
what the fuck is wrong with us?
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound
theres this girl next to nick
and she has more hair underneath her armpits
than the four of us combined
the driver warned his feathered friend
with colored hair and tattoos
he'd kick us off if we acted up
well i wish he would've
cause we been sleepin on the floor
for the past 2 nights and were all out of beer
and all of this bullshit for a $99 fair so
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus!
... and finally, THEIR TRIBUTE SONG THAT THEY WROTE WITH GOOD CHARLOTTE AND GOLDFINGER
The Innocent
written by John Feldmann, Benji & Joel
John Feldmann-lead vocals/guitar
Joel-lead vocals
Benji-vocals/guitar
Darrin Pfeiffer-drums
Tony Lovato-vocals
Jeremiah Rangel-vocals
Nick Gigler-vocals
The start of ArmageddonAnd it's just another dayWe all saw the newsNothing to saySo many friends are missingAnd family members goneAnd we all pray to GodHelp them be strongAnd now we stand togetherRemembering that dayThe lives we liveWill never be the same
And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why
So many had to die
Hate has turned to others
For their religion or their skin
But hate can't solve
The problem it began
Everyone is angry
People are afraid
And no one knows
What decisions will be made
And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why (Don't know why)
The innocent die (Don't know why)
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why (Don't know why)
But we know it's not right (Don't know why)
Will any of us
Ever be the same?
Will any of this
Ever be the same?
I don't know why
The innocent die
Will any of us
Ever be the same?
Will any of this
Ever be the same?
... and THE PICS (they are so fucking sexy!!!)


MO' MONEY, MO' 40S
Compulsive Prep
so pissed off i can’t get it off my mind
because it’s happened again for the second time
i know she’z lying but I believe her anyway
because I wanted things to turn out my way
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
speechless for words but so many thoughts in my head trying to figure out who I still got while lying alone in my bed and I’m too emotional for my own good but is that bad and would you care more if I cared less
but I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore
because I’m gettin’ rid of this mess
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
if I could turn back time I would not talk to you cause you didn’t want to hear from me and look how quickly were through and I don’t know if you do this to everyone but if you do I think you’re goin’ down because with a mind set like that you will eventually get dicked around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
ya goin’ down ya goin’ down and I’m not gonna’ be around
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
to help you to help you to help you to help you pull through
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
some things are hard to let go and sometimes you ain’t got a choice
seems like no one wants to listen or like they can’t even hear my voice
Same Old Same Old
you would never turn around your turning everything upside down and tryin’ to put the blame on me but now that I’m a superstar you always want to hang around and act like you did nothing wrong to me
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
the way you act now seems like we’ve been friends forever but lookin’ into those lying eyes I know better
you say it’s been a long time since we have seen each other you’re feeling
kind of beat and you wanna’ talk to a friend but here’s the truth here’s truth about the matter we were never friends
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
the way you act now seems like we’ve been friends forever but lookin’ into those lying eyes I know better
you say it’s been a long time since we have seen each other you’re feeling
kind of beat and you wanna’ talk to a friend but here’s the truth here’s truth about the matter we were never friends
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
I’m putting an end to my misery and this the end why can’t you see
cant you see
Random Arrival
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
theres nothing wrong with peace and unity
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themselves and thats what we need
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
now that your back im so happy to see you
well play some shows drink some beer or smoke a bong or two
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doest matter if your black or white
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doesnt matter if your black or white
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themelves and thats what we need
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
Dody Road
its about 11:30 and its getting kinda late
well i dont think tonight ill participate
then ricky shows up he looks like a toad
he says lets go i say where and its dody road
no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
only the raddest dudes like to hang there
with their one tattoo and their slicked back hair
they say their car is the raddest WOO-HOO
would you like to race me too
but no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
its dody
its dody
thats the place
that ill never go
its dody
its dody
that the place
thats ill never go
but no matter what you say and no matter what you do you can’t convince me can’t pull me through
can’t you tell I think it is a joke
I’ll never go to dody road
I'll never go to dody road
Movin' On
here’s a little story that im gonna tell you
and it’s not that important or at least not to you
youll be a friend and i hope youll give a listen cause im tryin to figure out what I’ve been missin
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
it’s really kind of funny how she walked ‘cause she didn’t even care she was just takin’ the right route one second she loved me the next she walked away it really made me mad I wanted her to stay
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dohnt care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
if you ever hear this song I want you to know
I thought of things to say and this is how it go’z I think your a bitch and I want you to see
remember all the sex that you promised me well I don’t want none and I don’t care and if you try to come back to me I swear I’ll leave you like you left me your such a fuckin’ bitch I want you to see
you used to live your life a fuckin lie
you used to live your life for just you and i
but he came in and stole your heart
and you thought it was time that we should part
but i dont care cause im movin on
and i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
i dont care cause im movin on
i dont care its taken too long
Rebel with a Reason
no i aint got a high school diploma
no i aint got a masters degree
but what you got to realize
is that you dont mean shit to me
because what i wanna do in life
dont take no education
what it takes is pure love and dedication
being told im gonna go nowhere
being told im gonna do nothing
thats shit dont phase me bitch
i aint bluffin
did ya really think all that shit ya said that it would phase me
guess again you puto I’m already loco
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
it was so long ago but not too far away
calumet park is where I used to stay
and when I was a kid everything went right
and now I’m growin’ up and it seems to be going wrong
so say what you want to say
and do what you wanna do
take some words of advice from me to you
be yourself through and through
I know I can’t turn back the time
and I know I can’t change my state of mind
one thing that I know for sure
is even if I end up poor
I’ll still be strummin’ my guitar
say what you want now
say what you want now
it has no effect on me
say what you want now
say what you want now
Im Stuck
here’s a little story about my life
I was a normal kid livin’ it right
and I don’t really know just what it was
but now I know I’m fuct up just because
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
I lost myself a day ago
where I was I don’t know
tomorrow I may find again the place I’ve always been
in the darkness all alone that’s the place that I always go
you’ll always find me hiding there
smokin’ a J and drinkin’ a beer
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
(lets go)
where I’m headed I don’t really care
just as long as there all there
cause I know one day my life will be tooken away
and that day may be today
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may never see another day
I better not take another sip or this time it might be it
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
I may have my life tooken away
and that day may be today
Muckaferguson
let’s go it’s so funny sometimes what you see
it really blows my fuckin’ mind
please tell me what are you trying to be
it really blows my f*ckin’ mind
who are you trying to be who are you following now
who are you trying to be who are you following now
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
image of you it makes me sick
I laugh out loud you probably think I’m a dick
but I don’t really care what the f*ck you say
I’ll always be myself and I’ll always be that way
who are you trying to be who are you following now
who are you trying to be who are you following now
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
who’s that on the corner is it really you
let me ask you one thing what are you trying to prove
please tell me what you’re do
please tell me what you’re trying to prove
please tell me what you’re do
please tell me what you’re trying to prove
quit trying to be something you’re not
it only makes me laugh
quit trying to be something you’re not
it’s your real friends that you forgot
Indian Pete
took a trip with your friends up to michigan
couldn’t wait to get back ‘cause you wanted to see her again
but now you’re back and everything’s changed
why is it so different
why is it so strange
while you were gone all her thoughts somehow got rearranged
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
ya never thought that she would leave you in this way
and now you’re all alone again why were you left astray
when your lost where do you run are you looking for someone
to come forward and be a friend who will be the one
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
I couldn’t believe it when I heard the news
to come to me you would refuse
you wouldn’t want to talk to a friend
cause things changed in the end
between us and a new crowd you had to choose
but such a friend I wasn’t willing to lose
I said I’d be there until the end
cause I would do anything for a true friend...
she left you feeling so cold
she left you feeling all alone
all alone
Slow Motion
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion
its slow motion
im so bored with life. is it because i wanted you to be my wife
and now shes gone again and i wonder if shell ever be my girlfriend again
i think what can i do now sittin by my kitchen table wonderin how
one second life can be filled with so much motion
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
i wake up get out of bed and feel like the walking dead
i take off my pants and wash my face
im safe again in the place i love to be
the unconcious world, its the best world of all
with no real worries or fears at all
so once again, something hits me in the eye
its the morning sun and its bringing me back to the place i dont wanna be
i dont wanna be
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
3's My Lucky Number
the one that I want is gone
and the two I never had are back but I’ll give up everything with those two
just to have the one that I had back
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
3’z my lucky number but I think I’m goin’ down
I think I’m gonna’ crumble with all these people around
they were the one’s that tore me up and threw me out
but I’m a stronger person now I wont go that route
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
3’z my lucky number but I think I’m goin’ down
I think I’m gonna’ crumble with all these people around
they were the one’s that tore me up and threw me out
but I’m a stronger person now I wont go that route
because...
you don’t know what you got until it’s gone
and those two it’s been way to long
to try and respark any flames I ever had and it makes me sad to think that everything I wanted back then
is coming back to me now
back to me now...
To All My Homies
good and bad things come in life and I wish the good things would stay
but usually it don’t go my way and the good things fly away
I have a knack for doing wrong but I try and I try maybe my future don’t look so bright but I’m not asking why
you gotta live your life from day to day
that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
I try to make new friends from day to day
and if they respect me man fuck they’re ok
it’s the yuppity white people that fear me that I can’t stand to see
cause if you’re a good person at heart your color means nothing to me
I talk to so many black people from day to day
and it seems like every time I see a white person they just turn away
you gotta live your life from day to day
that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
you gotta live your life from day to day
ya ya that’s the only way
don’t fear the things that you don’t know
just listen and learn and let the hard feelings go
That Song
I’ll say it once I’ll say it twice
you look real fine you look real nice
but from here what do I do
maybe you have a boyfriend and maybe you don’t
but it don’t matter ‘cause we won’t
talk tonight
I said stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
break it down
that cute little blonde streak in your hair
that nerdy guy’s got his arm around you that ain’t fair
but am I really the one that is the nerd
because of him to you my voice will never be heard
I said stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
I don’t wanna be just another guy
and I don’t wanna be just another guy
that comes up to you and tells you you’re fine
and you walk away cause you ain’t got the time
to listen to what I think oh how I wish that you were mine
so stay here with me
cause I wanna see what kind of person you are
but because I can’t talk and speak what I thought
you drift away so far stay here with me
stay here with me
stay here with me
Y
I got this story don’t know what it’s about but I’m gonna’ tell you anyway
what I do with my life I don’t really care but I know I was sure left astray
I know what I want and I know it runs deep through your body too
you’ll never understand just what the fuck i've gone through why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
it’s this pain that I feel
is this life really for real
or is this just another nightmare
because I know you just don’t care
you say it wasn’t your fault
ther’z a lesson that’s gotta’ be taught
if it was love that you make believed then you’re gonna have to live with me
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
why’d you do this to me
I don’t know
why won’t you let me leave
I don’t know
the bright light goin’ dim
and I can’t believe the state of mind I’m in
I didn’t ask to take this ride this is the end and I will see you on the other side
R Ska Song
well i went to your house and i knocked at the doorparents tell me to get down on the floori got nothing better to doso i say hey fuck you
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
i went to the record storei had no moneyi lost it all on a beti don't think that it's too funnynow i can't buy minor threat
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
i stay stay stay far awaymaybe i'll be back another dayparents tell me to get a joband i really don't care what they say
and i really hate your motheri really hate your fatherthey're always picking on me
went to the record storei had the moneyi lost it all on a bet
well i don't think that it's too funnynow i can't buy minor threat
and i really hate your motheri really hate your motheri really hey hey hey hey heyon meon meon meon me hey hey
let's go
Beer
we’re drinking our lives away
I think it was better yesterday that was when I had a hold on life my goals and my dreams
a straighter mind a straighter way to think you know what I mean
but now it’s gone
now it’s gone
now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
it makes my life a little easier
it takes away my daily pains
so what if it makes me think of the bad
that’s not the only thing I’ve had
only on my mind hears my confessions
but i was wrong
i was wrong
and now its gone
and i want it back
its the motivation i lack
and the will power that i need
to set me free
but now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
to set me free
but now it’s gone and I want it back
it’s motivation that I lack
and the will power that I need
to set me free
i wanna be free
to set me free
i wanna be free
On My Mind
my mind thinks in a weird waychanging a thought from day to dayone day i thought i'd like toand the next day i just didn't knowthe problem is i'm gonna see youevery day and at every show
but then i see this other girlmy mind went into another worldi think i'm too strange for herthat's why i'm macking you
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
i don't know how to let you knowhow i feel about youi guess i'll just write another songcuz that's all i know how to do
and when the tale of crushing's doneand then just write another onebut i don't think this time my armis going to run writebut then i see this other girlmy mind went into another worldi think i'm too strange for herthat's why i'm macking you
too many thoughts in my mindi think that i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
i hope you will understandi hope you can understandwhen you are notyou know how to relateand i hope you will understand
i hope you don't laugh at meand take this as a jokei hope you will understandcuz believe me this timethese feelings are for real
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
get up
too many thoughts in my mindi think i would rather be blindcuz then i wouldn't dream about youand you wouldn't be on my mindyou're always on my mind
youll always be on my mind
Is This The End?
is my family falling apart or has it already
and is my life falling apart because I’m not ready to live in this world all alone
I’m not a man just a boy going through life
the best the best that I can
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
she says she doesn’t want to be here
well why why don’t she go
is she telling the truth
or putting on another big show
and I don’t know if this would effect me
or bother me in any way
I guess that’s just how I’ve grown up
I live my life my own way
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
things are really fuct up but I know I’ll make it through
cause I’ve got some good friends to help me and they’ve done it toomy friends thought I had everything ‘’cause my parents gave me what I want
but what they can’t see is inside my heart is torn in knots
so lost and confused at the age of 17
will my life stay like this will I grow up to be old and mean
please God help me I know you’re on my side help me get the grass thats greener on the other side
I hide
don’t let peoples’ opinions change you
you must stay strong cause if your environment gets to you
your sanity won’t last that long
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
at the age of 17 is this the end
is this the end?
is this the end?
is this the end?
at the age of 17 is this the end
DESTINATION UNKNOWN
Opinions
Frustrated with whats going on
I feel lost and i dont feel right
Tell me what I can do to make
Them happy, but then will I be happy
I can't do wrong, I can't do right
I feel so alone tonight
I wish someone could feel
And understand the way I think
They got me on the brink
Of self destruction
I wish someone could feel
People surround me
Fill my head with opinions
Of what they think is right
I can't do wrong, I can't do right
I feel so alone tonight
I wish someone could feel
And understand the way I think
They got me on the brink
Of self destruction
I wish someone could feel
I can't do wrong I can't do rightI wonder where you are tonightI wish that you were hereTo understand the way I thinkYou know they got me on the brinkOf self destructionI wish someone could feelI wish someone could feel
Yesterday
I said sit back relaxIt's not the endWe're gonna both put itPut it off again
Our separate paths will lead usDifferent waysBut the care remainsIt will always stay
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all we haveSorry I could not make this last
One thing I need from youThat's honestyPlease never lie to meThat's what she said to me
One thing for sure is thatI will be trueIn everything I doThat's what I learned from you
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all we haveSorry I could not make this last
Being on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then gone, it takes so longBeing on the road is tough on everyone becauseYou're here then goneSeems like it takes so long
Yesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastYesterday's not all that badSorry I could not make this lastSorry I could not make this lastSorry I could not make this last
Another Day
Another day gone by
And still no reason why
You say goodbye but then you cry
A million miles apart we lie
I opened every door to you
I put all my trust in you
You took advantage of it why?
Was every word you said a lie?
It's just another day, that didn't go my wayIt's just another dayCause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
I sit in here with all this fearEmpty thoughts and a blank stareTrying to find, a reason whyThe ones you trust, are the ones that lie
And was I wrong, for trusting youYou said you just don't know what to doWhen you're with him, you think of meCause change means losing security
It's just another day, that didn't go my wayIt's just another dayCause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
You say there's too much past with himYou can't throw it all awayBut the past is all you have with himHistory means securityThat's what I say, it's just another day
Cause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you do
Cause times change, your mind's rearrangedYou walked away cause you started feeling strangeYou knew from the start that this wasn't for youBut your feelings can't control, the things that you doThat you do
It's just another day
Without You
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Thoughts of happinessOnly when you reminisceCause now that things are badYou think of what you could've had
Think of the years they spentWith no money for the rentFrom the bottom to the topThey stuck to their guns they'll never stop
Cause I warned you I told you I'd be better without youI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Now everyone has changedBut somehow you stayed the sameA life lesson has been learnedYour best came back and you got burned
What you done you try to hideIt's time to swallow your prideYou'll never change and I can seeWhen you said at least you're makin money from me
When I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
And I wonder where you are sometimesAnd I wonder areRight now
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youHow do you feel now
I warned you I told you I'd be better without youBut you didn't care youTold me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have youBut where are you now
I haven't seen you around you know where to be foundI wonder what happened to youAll the insecurities built inside of youMust have just blown up
Fucked Up Kid
the words you say ill never listen to
cause if i did id be just like you
but your my enemy and soon your gonna see
you gotta be yourself to be happy
cause your not
your not...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
cause your so quick to point the finger
you act like your shit dont linger
it feels good when you see someone else in a rut
it gives you confidence it makes you happy but
your not
your not...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
you act as if youve seen my way
but i know that you wont leave today
cause change is what you fear the most
and the end is getting close
and the end it getting close
and the end is getting close...
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
its all the things ive got
fucked up visions in my head
im a fucked up kid is what they said
but atleast i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got
and its all the things ive got
and its all the things...ive got
Its Over
You've been waiting forYou never knew for sureCause time was goin' byAnd never asked you why
When I would talk to you
The words would go right through
Your head
But I couldnt tell
You were under her spell
She had full control
No one would ever know
How much she didnt care
Just like Sunny not Cher
The beat didnt go on
She looked at you and she said to your face
Its Over, Its Over
Shes got a new man and its time for you to
Move Over, Move Over
Your drunk and now you wish that you
Were Sober, Were Sober
Cause now you cant get it out of your head and
Its Over, Is Over
She said she doesnt know
Its like the Springer show
Shes says that she loves you
But that she loves him too
So you keep holding on
Your love for her is strong
Until she says so long
And you did nothin wrong
But this keps happenin
Time and time again
Your thinkn to yourself
She was your only friend
But your so fuckin wrong
Thats just so fuckin lame
You realize their all the same
She looked at you and she said to your faceIt's over, it's overShe's got a new man and it's time for youTo move over, move overYou're drunk and mad you wish that youWere sober, were soberCause now you can't get it out of your headThat it's over, that it's over, that it's overCause it's over, it's over, it's overAnd it's over, it's over, it's over
Tell them lies and they will believe youWhen you're honest they will deceive youIf you love them they will just leave youBut if you play them they will stay with you
Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will be with you
And I'll be here when she says
She looked at you and she said to your faceIt's over, it's overShe's got a new man and it's time for youTo move over, move overYou're drunk and mad you wish that youWere sober, were soberCause now you can't get it out of your headThat it's over, that it's over, that it's overCause it's over She said I'm sorry it's over(Well it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)She said I'm sorry it's over(And it's over, it's over, it's over)
Reason
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the season
And the seasons changed
So I listen to what you say
But I dont believe a word you say
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the season
And the seasons changed
So I listen to what you say
But I dont believe a word you say
I just wanted to get over you
But i cant stop thinkin about you
Not a second goes by that youre not in my head
You dick me over again and again
But I still remain your friend
Its time for this to end
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the seasons
And the seasons changed
Will he still love me tomorrow?
For way too long you fucked with my mind
Ive sang this song way too many times
And you need to know its gone on for way too long
Thought it would be just the two of us in the end
But now im leavin and your not even my friend
Was that the way uou felt for real?
You say you love me but you cannot leave him
So now im leaving you for this here same reason
Cause time change and so do the seasons
And the seasons changed
Will he still love me tomorrow?
Tonight i feel the lovin in your eyes
Breakin' Down
WWhen we first met It seemed so right me and youWe had it all we had it made What we had was trueBut the years have passed And we didn't last the test of timeSee you now and then Thought you were my friendI was wrong this time
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin'
You've lost your sense of stability Now that you're freeNo memory of yesterday Is what you say to meSay you're so jaded But intoxicated is all you feelAnd now I've learned that What we had was never real
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin' she's breakin' downBreakin' breakin'
Things you've done show you don't care So I won't be there
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin' she's breakin' down
Breakin' breakin'
...she's broken down
Chelsea
i thought you were the one
But I was wrong cuz
You're already left and I hope
That you miss me tonight Chelsea
And I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
A year ago we met And I never would've guessedThat you'd mean so much to meBut the brown eyes drove me crazy And at the time everything was going wrongBut you made everything seem alrightSo now I wonder where you are On this cold November night
I thought you were the oneBut I was wrong cuzYou're already left and I hope That you miss me tonight ChelseaAnd I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
I had to leave that night cuz I knew somethin' wasn't rightWe held each other As the night came to an endBut all I could think about was your boyfriendIf he only knew the things That you've done and saidAnd that you were lyin' here with me in this bedBecause I live so far away Is why you chose him that day
I thought you were the oneBut I was wrong cuzYou're already left and I hope That you miss me tonight ChelseaAnd I hope that you miss me tonight Chelsea
Tonight I don't know where you areBut I know where you should beSo here I am all alone when you should beWith me Chelsea
Misunderstood
i know you're not exactly crazy
About the way I have been lately
And I don't know when I should
Say all the things I want to say
Cuz I know that it would hurt you
And I don't want that
Cuz after all the things we've been through
you deserve much more than that
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
I can see just what is coming Another argument worth nothingAnd believe me when I tell you Another fight I won't go throughCuz I know that it would hurt you And I don't want thatCuz after all the pain you've been through You deserve much more than that
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
I wont hear anything that you say to me
I wont hear anything that you say to me
I wont hear anything that you say to me (say to me)
Completely overwhelmin'Stories that you've heard When people tell you thatDon't trust himHe's pretending that he cares for youEven though there's nothing left to prove
Drawing Board
i can recall only this one time this type of control the girl had on my mind
ive fallen deep. i cant get out. ive never acted this way before
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
feeling alone, and shes on my mind
try to erase all the pain from that time
shes breaking up and im breakin down
now im headed out of this fucked up town
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but the band wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
in your head
so love me so i can be myself again now maybe
so things are normal in my head im trying to break away this ball and chain
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
things seem normal in my head
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with words you youve heard before
in your head
i am dead
Mothers Prayer
i wonder if you're alone up thereSince you've been goneI've been alone down hereShe told me that I would be OKNow I don't believe what she had to sayWhen she said...
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
Now days have passed And weeks have tooAll I think about is how I miss youShe told me that I would be OKBut I feel the same that I felt that dayWhen she said...
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
He don't know what he has done Mother prays to the Lord above Lord please save my sons
He don't know what he has done Mother prays to the Lord above Lord please save my sons
Don't worry and you'll be fineIt's only a matter of timeAs she sits back and finishes her wineShe prays to the Lord I'll be fine
She prays to the lord ill be fine
its only a matter of time
its only a matter of time
Living Dead
There came a time in my life
When everything seemed alright
But everything turned out wrong
And now ive got to carry on
Without you in my life
Sleep through the day into the night
Roll out of bed what can be said?
Im living now but i feel dead
Does he realize what hes got
Ill be there when he is not
I hope i stay stuck in his head
Im living now but i feel dead
You walked away yesterday
Now todays there's nothing to say
So tomorrow we'll never know
what should have and or could have been
Cause yesterday has been done
You walked away yesterday
Now todays there's nothing to say
So tomorrow we'll never know
What should have and or could have been
Cause yesterday has been done
Movin' On
Sitting underneath the moonlightMissing my baby tonight, this feeling's just not rightThe last time we touched it's been so longHer lovin' keeps me strong and I know that nothing's wrong
But I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' onNever understand the way she makes me feelWhen she holds my hand I hope that God had this plannedAnd she was his angel, lost her wings for this worldTo come down here and save me, she's my baby
But I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyI know that she's the one for meI know that she thinks the same about meAnd I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' on and on and onHer lovin' keeps me movin' on
I just keep holding onBut I'm not that strongWithout youI just keep holding onBut I'm not that strongWithout you
Cause I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyI know that she's the one for meI know that she thinks the same about meCause I feel so alone todayCause I miss my babyA love I've been missing for so longHer lovin' keeps me movin' on
Say So Long
Its 3 a.m. and you're walkin on the streets again
No place to call home
you feel youve got no friends
you wonder is this the end?
Cause time and time again
You hope for a better end
You keep losing all the time
You feel your gonna lose your mind
You say "This is the last time!"
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
Its 10 a.m. and the next day has just begun
Never thought it'd come to this
Now everyones at work
No where to go and now it hurts
You left your home because
You felt your life there was done
That you wanted something more
And now your all alone
Youve got no place to call home
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
Youre questioning the road that you chose
For reasons why yourself and no one knows
Now your here youve got no where to go
Youve got a choice but you choose to go
I say so long
I think its time to carry on
I say so long
My guarantee just went wrong
I say so long
For reasons why you cant believe
I say so long
I say so long
WASTING TIME
Long Days Long Nights
if i could be anything at all. i'd be an angel spread my wings and fly away
but im stuck here on the ground so ill see you around
youll hear me piss and moan and complain.
if i could be anything at all. i'd be an angel spread my wings and fly away
but im stuck here on the ground so ill see you around
youll hear me piss and moan and complain.
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the feelings gone the pain dwells on
long days long nights the feelings just not right
i picked up a pen and pad and i start to write
thinking about our last fight. it was a cold and rainy night
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the thrill is gone the pain dwells on
on and on
I coulda guessed the day would come that you would consider me scum
the day is here all the signs were there
and id always prayed that you would stay but instead you walked away
the thrill is gone the pain dwells on
on and on
the pain dwells on and on
Hotel Room
im all alone in this hotel room. the fear inside of me is uncontrollable
i hear the cars see the sun the sky is blue
all i can think about is being with you. guess im all alone again so
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be there wishing i was there
never once did i seem to care. if i didnt have any part of you
but now i do and i dont know what to say
i feel lost in every possible way. guess im all alone again so
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
wishing i was there
wanna call you when i know i cant call you
wanna see you when i know i cant see you
wanna touch you when i know i cant touch you
wanna be inside of you
wanna call you when i know i cant call you
wanna see you when i know i cant see you
wanna touch you when i know i cant touch you
wanna be inside of you
wanna be inside of you
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was there
do you think you know the way i feel?
or do you think you feel the way i do
cause i am all alone, all my friends are home
and soon ill be here wishing i was t here
wishing i was there
wishing i was there
wishing i was there
Whats the Dillio?
theres this little girl and i think shes so fine
im not giving up until she is mine
i wanna be her boy and i want her to be my girl
because since i met her ive been in another world
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
i said
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
see everybody else has gotten involved
thats not the way this should have evolved
i should have just told you how i felt
but when im around you my words just melt
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her shes not just another whore
she was just my friend and now i want more
theres something special to her she not
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal deal?
whats the d d d dillio dillio
whats the d d d deal?
(im not homeless people just think that i am)
Slow Motion
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion
its slow motion
im so bored with life. is it because i wanted you to be my wife
and now shes gone again and i wonder if shell ever be my girlfriend again
i think what can i do now sittin by my kitchen table wonderin how
one second life can be filled with so much emotion
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
i wake up get out of bed and feel like the walking dead
i take off my pants and wash my face
im safe again in the place i love to be
the unconcious world, its the best world of all
with no real worries or fears at all
so once again, something hits me in the eye
its the morning sun and its bringing me back to the place i dont wanna be
i dont wanna be
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
its slow motion you got me trapped inside this world
its slow motion will somebody please press play
Drawing Board
i can recall only this one time this type of control the girl had on my mind
ive fallen deep. i cant get out. ive never acted this way before
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
feeling alone, and shes on my mind
try to erase all the pain from that time
shes breaking up and im breakin down
now im headed out of this fucked up town
i spent days and nights here in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but the band wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with the words youve heard a million times before
in your head
so love me so i can be myself again now maybe
so things are normal in my head im trying to break away this ball and chain
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
things seem normal in my head
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
i spent days and nights in my bedroom
trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
write a song a day but she wont like it anyway
back to the drawing board with words you youve heard before
in your head
i am dead
Change
i said what is that your saying today
the exact opposite of yesterday
its funny how things can change
and your mind gets rearranged
tell me what i should do tell what should i say
is there even time for change?
or is it just one following anoher
when i look your way dont know what to say
cause you change you style almost every day
its funny the way things went down
cause your still stuck in this town
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
or is it just one following another
gonna break it down and i gotta let you know
to you life is just a fashion show
thats the way i feel inside
that makes me laugh at how hard that you tried
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
or is it just one following another
what will you do and what will you say
does it depend on what their doing that day
interest you know used to hang so low
youve lost yourself
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
is their even time for change
or is it just one following another
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
us there even time for change
or is it just one following another
i said what is that your saying today
the exact opposite of yesterday
its funny how things can change
and your mind gets rearranged
tell me what should i do tell me what should i say
is there even time for change
Forget You
what went on last night wasnt just another stupid fight
will we be again or will we both forget this in the end
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
consider me your friend until you do that stupid shit again
i believed all you told when you left me hangin out so cold
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
why cant i forget you and everything you do
its so hard to do
Electric Baby
there are two loves that i have in this world
my electric guitar my electric girl
i love them both so much and i hope that they see
without one of them i wouldnt be me
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
well i would do anything for you at the drop of a dime
cause when i feel lost
i feel fine knowing that your mine
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
im alone without you
i feel lost i dont know what to do
in this life i wont stay
if you choose to run away
dont run away
i need you to stay
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
i got 4 words running through my mind all the time
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
cause i wanna hold you
thats all i really wanna do
dont run away
i need you to stay
so dont run away
i need you to stay
Girl For Tonight
it was the last time i saw you
who would have known that youd be blue
im getting up and movin on
cause ive been drinking here for way to long
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
haven't felt real love in so long
my true love left me and she did me wrong
when im alone i feel the pain
so ill get drunk and find a girl to keep me from going insane
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
i hope tonight will never end
with this angel that heaven sent
i hope tonight will never end
with this angel that heaven sent
that heaven sent
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
just tell me things will be alright
youll be my girl for tonight
youll be my girl for tonight
Lonely Days
When you phone and will you tell me
or will you try because I'm lonely
I wanna know whats happening
and can you tell me so I wont be I wont be lonely anymore
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i do
tell me now what should i do
a little drunk im pissing on the street
as im walking im trippin on my own feet
i start to laugh and then i wonder why
i choose to stare im staring at starting at the sky again
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i try
tell me now what i should try
these lonely days will stay and ride
wanna follow through to something new
tell me now what should i do
tell me now what should i do
Richard Marxism
well i know i let you down
and i guess i wont be seeing you around
i dont have much to say
i didnt mean to fuck up in this way
and now im all alone
because im back on my own
just give me one more chance
this time i swear it will be my last
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
but i got scared pretended not to care
i dont know what to say
i think i know why you look this way
it was something that i say
because its still running through my head
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
but i got scared pretended not to care
and i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
i shouldnt have acted that way
i miss you tonight i made up my mind
cause you were the one, you were always fun
i got scared pretended not to care
Random Arrival
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
theres nothing wrong with peace and unity
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themselves and thats what we need
whats going on these days i havent seen you in so long
what went on those days wjy werent we getting along
what went on those days ive missed you so much
all those times that we drank way too much
now that your back im so happy to see you
well play some shows drink some beer or smoke a bong or two
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doest matter if your black or white
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
everythings gonna be alright
lets everybody get along tonight
it doesnt matter if your black or white
cause thats what makes a person free
to be themelves and thats what we need
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
so move on move on move on
thats where i stand
no regrets no regrets no regrets
just hold my hand
The Last Time
cause its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
its the last time
if at all you taught me anything
you taught me pain and hurt
now can you tell me
do you ever feel guilt
anything that you built inside of yours
cause its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
and its the last time
when i think all the thoughts come to my head
of the last words that you said
there stuck inside of me
and i said this wont happen to me again
3 months later your my friend and its happening again
(go)
i will not cry alone as i lye
i said what about our past
you said stick it up your ass
she shut the door with these words
said you were thinking of me last time you were in bed
its the last time
its the last time
its the last time i ever want to see you
its the last time i ever want to hear you
its the last time im giving up on this one girl
and its the last time
Wasting my Time
ive waited im lonely
youve faded im jaded
trying to hold onto the things that were once mine
theres too much time wasting my time
my mind goes blank again
think of nothing but you
ive waited im lonely
you faded im jaded
theres too much time wasting my time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
and are you thinking of me or do you want to be free
just tell me and i will let you go
theres too much time wasting my time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
theres too much time and all i know
im in a fucked state of mind i cant let go
theres too much time and all i know
im in a fucked state of time
and it seems were miles away
when will i see you again
and it seems that i dont wanna stay
when will i see you again
when will i see you again
when will i see you again
Greyhound
the morning after our first trip to greenbay
we headed off to the station of greyhound
not thinkin much of what was ahead. ahead of us
the stinky people and the smell. the smell on this bus
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
a 32 oz. of high life and six sleeping pills
were not enough to make me crash. so im still awake
jeremiahs gonna get some ass from the girl next to him
all of this to play one show with goldfinger
what the fuck is wrong with us?
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound
theres this girl next to nick
and she has more hair underneath her armpits
than the four of us combined
the driver warned his feathered friend
with colored hair and tattoos
he'd kick us off if we acted up
well i wish he would've
cause we been sleepin on the floor
for the past 2 nights and were all out of beer
and all of this bullshit for a $99 fair so
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus. fuck you!
fuck the greyhound bus!
... and finally, THEIR TRIBUTE SONG THAT THEY WROTE WITH GOOD CHARLOTTE AND GOLDFINGER
The Innocent
written by John Feldmann, Benji & Joel
John Feldmann-lead vocals/guitar
Joel-lead vocals
Benji-vocals/guitar
Darrin Pfeiffer-drums
Tony Lovato-vocals
Jeremiah Rangel-vocals
Nick Gigler-vocals
The start of ArmageddonAnd it's just another dayWe all saw the newsNothing to saySo many friends are missingAnd family members goneAnd we all pray to GodHelp them be strongAnd now we stand togetherRemembering that dayThe lives we liveWill never be the same
And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why
So many had to die
Hate has turned to others
For their religion or their skin
But hate can't solve
The problem it began
Everyone is angry
People are afraid
And no one knows
What decisions will be made
And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why
So many had to die
We don't know why (Don't know why)
The innocent die (Don't know why)
Will this world ever
Find a way to change?
And we don't know why (Don't know why)
But we know it's not right (Don't know why)
Will any of us
Ever be the same?
Will any of this
Ever be the same?
I don't know why
The innocent die
Will any of us
Ever be the same?
Will any of this
Ever be the same?
... and THE PICS (they are so fucking sexy!!!)


went to a mest concert on friday. i fucking love them!!! if you don't like mest then you will. you have to . buy their cds godamnit. support the underdog. charlotte and i got there about the same time that mest did. it was really cool. nick gave me a hug, but he accidently burned my bettie page shirt with his cig. you can't see it anymore though, so it's okay. and after the concert i got a hug from matt and tony and two more from nick, because tony noticed that when i got excited and gave them hugs my little skirt flipped up, and since i don't wear underwear when i'm wearing hose he liked that, so he told nick to give me more hugs. and he offered to fuck us, but we declined (laura can be proud!!!!!!!), and then we went home and had kinky lesbian sex. ok, so it wasn't really kinky and it wasn't really sex. but pige (that would be short for "pigeon", rhymes with "fridge", and is my nickname for "charlotte") gave me an invisible hickie that my mother saw, and she's like who's that from? i can't even see it. i mean, i can, but i have to really look for it. she must have my neck memorized. but anyway, i fucking love mest and you should to. god, matt and tony are so fucking hot. ohhhh, hmmm. i felt like i'd died and gone to heaven. they are so fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!
20020522
i can't stand it much longer. the stupidity i witness everyday in the halls is unbearable. and the worst thing is that they procreate. the human race will wither away to nothing. human spawn will be numb and mindless. little sheep. breeding like rabbits. and then hopefully killing each other off so that the rest of the world can finally live in peace.
following the damn crowd. ditzy "clueless" girls, and "macho" (yeah right, give me a break) immmature horny guys.
these boys tortured a poor lady bird beetle to death and shoved it down this girls shirt and threw it at her because she pretended to be afraid of it like a dumb little stereotyoical girl. i hate high school kids. they are so stupid. most of them anyway. they can't let go of their pathetic sheeplike life.
stupid, sadistic, malicious, stuck up, ditzy, little preps. that lady bug didn't do anything to you god damnit.

because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "it seems you enjoy dancing, drinking, eating, orgies, and expensive perfume. you're the type of person who buys brand-name socks--but you are also the type of person who has been electricuted by the toaster at least seven times. you were at the top of the class in elementary school, but faltered in junior high, because you didn't understand algebra. your favorite singer, suprisingly, is prince, and in your spare time you can be found tinkering with broken calculators and atari home videogame units."
whatever will laura tell you??
hey they got it right! (mostly)
20020521
i almost feel bad about writing this because this is basically just one big gripe, but it's better i gripe to the page than to people. but you know what constantly bothers me? people. people and their self-centered problems. it never used to bother me, but i hear people say things about their lives and how everything is always someone else's fault, and how it will just be horrible for them forever, and i just want to scream at them. "OPEN YOUR EYES! DO YOU NOT SEE THE HORRORS OF THE WORLD AROUND YOU? I know this isn't a self-esteem booster, but YOU ARE NOTHING! You are INSIGNIFICANT AND YOUR LIFE IS MEANINGLESS! Nobody CARES about your stupid problems. It is NOT the end of the world if your favorite dress got ruined at the dry cleaners. It is NOT your mother's fault that you have a B! And is a B all that bad? Be thankful for the fact that you have a school, for Pete's sake. YOU KNOW NOTHING!!!! How can you even begin to feel sorry for yourself? NO! It is not the end of the world. Come out of your corner, your shadow, your BLINDFOLD. Look around you. You bring your suffering upon yourself. Everything is your fault. Your suffering is imagined. You are doing this to yourself." and do you know why it bothers me? ... because i know i do it too, and that makes it all the more painful to watch.
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of course i can see exceptions. say you're raped, molested, tortured, have a loved one murdered, are a veteran of war. i know at least some of those things will stay with you forever, and i think that all of them will, but cannot say for lack of experience. but those memories will not prevent you from living a good life. live the rest of your life to the fullest. some good times were taken away, some fears left imprinted on your brain, some memories will never go away no matter what you do, but DON"T LET THAT RUIN THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! this is the only life we get, so far as i know at least the only one we will remember at least. live it up. don't let past experiences bog you down, don't suffer needlessly. and i can say this. some people talk about depression or trauma and say to just get over it, but have never been through it themselves. they have no room to talk. i went through some things i won't discuss with you, nor anyone else unless it is completely necessary, but they don't bother me that much anymore. we all need time for mourning, and i respect that, but you can get over it and with time you will.
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but the meaningless crap some people complain about. their "problems" that aren't really problems. that bothers me. they have no ground. no basis. no foundation. still, i must forgive them on their naïveté . when there is nothing to compare their little problems to they may seem like they are the end of the world. but it does not mean the end of the world. people live through horrible things and the world still turns and sun still shines, and tide rolls in and then washes away. even what i consider to be horrible in my life cannot even compare to the tragedies the whole world over. i have suffered not at all. i cannot complain. but i have been through enough to realize that our culture is overly self-centered. i can realize that people in our cushioned society do not know what pain is. of course i am making a generalization. it's like saying our country is overweight, which, as a generalization, is true, but since it is a generalization it isn't entirely true, because i and several of my friends are living contradictions to the statement. it is still okay, however, for me to say that our culture does not know what suffering is.
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true it may be that we got a small taste of it just shy of a year ago, but as i said it was just a taste. and i have completely strayed from my original topic. well, not completely, it's just that i do not have to time to go so in depth. my point is simply that I AM SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYONE'S WHINEY BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
_
bottom line. that's all there is to it.
_
of course i can see exceptions. say you're raped, molested, tortured, have a loved one murdered, are a veteran of war. i know at least some of those things will stay with you forever, and i think that all of them will, but cannot say for lack of experience. but those memories will not prevent you from living a good life. live the rest of your life to the fullest. some good times were taken away, some fears left imprinted on your brain, some memories will never go away no matter what you do, but DON"T LET THAT RUIN THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! this is the only life we get, so far as i know at least the only one we will remember at least. live it up. don't let past experiences bog you down, don't suffer needlessly. and i can say this. some people talk about depression or trauma and say to just get over it, but have never been through it themselves. they have no room to talk. i went through some things i won't discuss with you, nor anyone else unless it is completely necessary, but they don't bother me that much anymore. we all need time for mourning, and i respect that, but you can get over it and with time you will.
_
but the meaningless crap some people complain about. their "problems" that aren't really problems. that bothers me. they have no ground. no basis. no foundation. still, i must forgive them on their naïveté . when there is nothing to compare their little problems to they may seem like they are the end of the world. but it does not mean the end of the world. people live through horrible things and the world still turns and sun still shines, and tide rolls in and then washes away. even what i consider to be horrible in my life cannot even compare to the tragedies the whole world over. i have suffered not at all. i cannot complain. but i have been through enough to realize that our culture is overly self-centered. i can realize that people in our cushioned society do not know what pain is. of course i am making a generalization. it's like saying our country is overweight, which, as a generalization, is true, but since it is a generalization it isn't entirely true, because i and several of my friends are living contradictions to the statement. it is still okay, however, for me to say that our culture does not know what suffering is.
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true it may be that we got a small taste of it just shy of a year ago, but as i said it was just a taste. and i have completely strayed from my original topic. well, not completely, it's just that i do not have to time to go so in depth. my point is simply that I AM SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYONE'S WHINEY BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
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bottom line. that's all there is to it.
20020520
i want to go back to the 50s damnit. they had marylin monroe, bettie page, and james dean. it's not fair. they were sexier than any stars now. than any real people now. it's not fair. i want to go back to the 50s.
20020519
i recently recieved this:
doesn't not being able to recall the night before scare you? one of these days you are going to get raped or something and people will say, " well, she didn't have to take to pot. she had it coming" won't that suck. but hey, at least there won't be the emotional trauma because you won't remember it. but when you find yourself pregnant with a STD i think you'd be a little more shook up.
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and i must say that i really do appreciate the concern, and i'm not being bitchy or sarcastic or anything. yes it is kind of scary sometimes, but life is scary. and to the possibilty of not being able to remember being raped, i will say that when something like that happens, even if it isn't as bad as rape, i know it is something you will never forget and it will stay with you and shape you and scar and scare you for the rest of your life. pot doesn't erase that much. details yes. that no. and i don't plan on doing anything harder. you never forget that. never. it's horrible.
doesn't not being able to recall the night before scare you? one of these days you are going to get raped or something and people will say, " well, she didn't have to take to pot. she had it coming" won't that suck. but hey, at least there won't be the emotional trauma because you won't remember it. but when you find yourself pregnant with a STD i think you'd be a little more shook up.
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and i must say that i really do appreciate the concern, and i'm not being bitchy or sarcastic or anything. yes it is kind of scary sometimes, but life is scary. and to the possibilty of not being able to remember being raped, i will say that when something like that happens, even if it isn't as bad as rape, i know it is something you will never forget and it will stay with you and shape you and scar and scare you for the rest of your life. pot doesn't erase that much. details yes. that no. and i don't plan on doing anything harder. you never forget that. never. it's horrible.
i feel so alone right now. i spent the whole day yesterdy with ivan and that was really nice, but i always feel miserable the day after something good like that happens.
charlotte is fine. i'm just paranoid. thank god she is. i don't know what i would do if something bad happened to her.
i am worried about charlotte because she wnt to a party and i nkow they had shrooms which she has never tried and she has even less common sense than i do because i am rational at least half the time and i hope she's okay.







